Down a spiral

Looking down into the spiral
seeing me going down
down and further down
beyond recall, beyond repair

all that i have done
all that i am doing
all that i am able to
all is lost

moving further down
deeper below the surface
beyond recall
beyond repair

i see my reality collapse
see it crumble
bit by bit
little by little

then totally flushed down
all at once
like a pack of cards
tumbling in the winds of fate

caught in the vortex
realizing doom but helpless
watching myself destruct
watching myself end

the end has come
only my eyes remain above
not even trying to get out
let me submerge

let me succumb
let me give in
let me give up
let me be