Wanting to wake up, but still sleeping

i desperately want to wake up
i definitely want to wake up
i definitely should wake up

to the fact that i am not a kid anymore;
to the fact that time heals all sores;
to the fact that i must move on;
to the fact that the moment has gone;

to my responsibilities;
to opportunities that i must seize;
to targets left undone;
to promises left broken;

to your absence;
to my innocence;
to the love that we had;
to the life that we shared;

but i want to sleep on
dont want to find this gone
want to remain in this dream
dont want to wake up with a scream