Demystifying Me - Part 2

Continued from an earlier post...

when i smoke

people have been after my blood for quite some time for being a smoker inspite of my health conditions...i have just this to say...you dont know what the f**k i have been through..so back off..to other people to whom i cant use such offensive language i just use Twain's comment..."quitting is so easy...i have done it thousands of times " i didnt start smoking for the glam factor of it although i seriously do not get what is glamorous about sticking a burning piece of paper into one of your holes...i smoke for the intoxication in it..that 7 minutes of bliss, of calm, of ...whatever it is i am happy doing it.

i have gone through all the various stages a smoker can be.. i used to hate my dad smoking when i was a kid...then hated my friends trying it out to look cool...then came my professional life and before i know it i was chugging away like a chimney...then i decided i have to quit and went in for alternatives...seriously alcohol was too expensive an alternative...then when i got too sweet to have chewing gum or mints, i got back on the wagon...not just got back but literally humped and jumped the wagon...then came the medicine..the glorious Champix days...kept me off for a few months...all that came tumbling down when i landed in brussels for a flight change to NY...too frigging cold...had to buy smokes and provide internal heat...yeah yeah nice excuse i know...and before i know it i am back on track to become ITC's most valuable customer.


People have been advising me to quit for some time now...they dont get it that it is a time-revered tradition that cannot be stopped just like that...iam a hero, a saviour, a fighter, a champion for the welfare of so many people, a martyr who deserves recognition(on second thoughts i dont want recognition..i will be just another glorified marble or granite statue for the pigeons to crap upon)...think of the thousands of families of the workers at the tobacco plantation....think of the hundreds of people working in the factories processing the ciggies...think of the millions of shareholders in the company who pour oil into their eyes and sit all day glued to the stock markets news...how can i just abandon them...NO NO NO..i cant be that selfish..however i think i shall in some days..not because they told me to but because i think i need to ...( and also there is a proposed price increase in the offing...come on, spending so much to release stress...better to release the thing that causes me stress...job,work, family etc)